Already being as sick as I am with CF and feeling exhausted and
sick most of the time this is proving to be exactly as difficult and scary as I imagined (and was warned by my GP and CF team) they have warned me this could be it for me if I don't get through it, but with all the hope and tiny amount of energy I do have I'm fighting, literally with everything I have. And to those who wonder why I'm not in hospital, it is because I have 'wishes' and 'plans' in place regarding end of life and I don't want my life to end in hospital, a place I've always tried to avoid and to end my life there would be against everything I wish for, I want to be at home, comfortable, surrounded by my loved ones, with my pups and I'm under the care of the hospice if things do go that way so we have plans in place - but I'm still positive, even with everything life is throwing at me right now, the flu, broken wrist and some other personal issues - I will beat it all and get through everything, no obstacle will get in my way - it's new lungs or nothing I'm afraid :D
But anyway, I ask you all, please help me to get through this, pray, wish, cross yours fingers - whatever works, please do it and help me keep going strong because I'm still hopeful my lungs will come, a friend told me recently just when everything seemed like life was going to pot for them and they were slipping away, life was near the end, the call came, their new lungs came just in time. I'm hoping this is how it will work for me too.
I'm sorry this post is so long but I feel I've let people down not updating my blog regularly or posting many status/replying to messages but now you know why, I'm probably asleep lol.
Thanks for the support and hopefully my next update will be better, either I've overcome it and beat the flu, or even better - I've got 'the call!'