I've always kept my blog private from friends/family, because I didn't want people to realise exactly what I go through and how I'm feeling sometimes. It's much easier to put on a brave face and a fake front with a smile, than have to explain to people exactly how difficult life is, or why, perhaps, I can't do certain things. I wanted to protect people, my close family and Josh know what it's like living with CF but nobody else. I don't want people to worry about me, or feel sorry for me, so I've hidden the reality from them.
I may go through and delete everything I've written prior to this and start fresh. I want people to be involved now, most people who read this blog have CF or know someone with CF so my blog isn't really making a difference, as those who read are experiencing the same things themselves.
I guess I'm at the age now where I want people to understand. I don't want to hide anymore and it's time I opened up and let people in. So if all of a sudden all my previous blog posts disappear it's because I've decided to take the plunge and open up to everyone, I hate that I'm kind of living a lie, only sharing part of myself with the people who deserve to know the truth.
I want to make a difference too, so many people who blog have already has raised more awareness than I could even dream of! I mean, there are members of my own family that have no idea what my daily life routine involves half of them don't even know I use oxygen! I'm a private person, I've always been embarressed to involve people and didn't want people to have pity on me, I've always wanted to be 'normal' so if I kept the sick part of me a secret, I could still be 'normal' in their eyes.
So to those of you who have read, commented and supported me on my 'secret journey..' I'm so grateful, you've all made a difference and I've taken all advice on board, I even cheer when I get a new follower (hehe!)
My private journey ends here.
My blog will now be an open book (to a certain extent obviously) and I'll be welcoming the world into my life :)!